~happy new year~
i decided to reflect upon the last few years and summarize them for everyones enjoyment, tell you about my college plans, and then talk about my new years eve experiance...
pop a squat, go to the bathroom, and get comphy...
-Closing of 2004-
Halfway through my junior year, my first year at mott, i still had no friends...i still was shy, and i was still afraid to talk to people, i had lunch alone and worked my life away. I was still stuck in a rut of depression and anxiety, scared to try new things. I started to realize the only way to get myself out of this dark hole, was to aquire friends that cared about me, people that i could spend time and try new things with. New years eve was spent alone.
-Beginning of 2005-
Here it is, my new years resolution for '05: Be myself and start talking to people, strike up conversation with people i dont know, make some friends and be happy.
What a resolution huh, seemed simple and easy to do right? Now it was a new semester at mott, and i had a few new classes but halfway through january, i still havent acted on my resolution. I was in a senior government class with my freind Nick who worked at pine lake with me. In government i met a couple fun and interesting people that were friends with nick, we started having lunch together at the same table and i was happy as i could ever be. I finally met some people that accept me for who i am and think im funny, i met a few more people through nick and his girlfriend that i now call my best friends.
-End of Junior Year, June 2005-
I finally got my license and a car, and my new found life full of partying and hanging out was more than i ever expected. I was so happy, i worked every day and partyed almost every night and had the time of my life. I realized i had an alcohol addiction of some sort, i would get pissed and irritated if we werent drinking...which dident happen that often. Summer '05 was just about to start and i knew it would be one of the best times of my life.
Everytime there was a pistons game, all of us would gather up at smokey bones and eat, talk, and watch the game. We had fun for the most part, this was when we all fell into our little group: Me, Amanda, Nick, Chivonne, Joe, Nikki, Kelly and occasionally Alex, Dj, Greenan, Malissa, and Sarah. We pretty much saw eachother every day and did everything together in between our crazy work schedules. I went to cedar point for the first time with Joe, Dj and some other friends of dj's and had a good ol guys weekend full of fun times, campfires and lots of beer. I practically lived in my work uniform, everytime i would go anywhere i had on pine lake clothing because i dident have time to change, and i really dident care. Most of our nights were consumed by partying and alcohol. Pretty soon i would have a reality check, and have to start school.
-Senior Year, August '05-
My birthday just passed and what would be better than any gift in the entire world? STARTING SCHOOL!!! not. Senior year was just beginning and it really dident feel like it. It was the usual school shit, except i dident have any of my friends because they all had graduated last june. None of us really talk to Amanda or Kelly anymore, lets just say we discovered what kind of people they really are. Winter came and i was done with Pine Lake for the year, and started my winter job at Ponderosa. Thankgiving rolled around and then came christmas, but it dident feel like it should have. Christmas dident excite me as it use to, and reality was starting to set in- i was planning on moving out with two of my freinds and realized that my life is changing drastically.
-End of '05 and beginning on '06-
Well its finally here, the year i graduate. Looking back on the past 4 years, i realize that i have gone from one end of the spectrum to the other, i have changed so much from when i first walked in the door to high school...as the new year begins my final year of school is half over, and to be honest im scared...im scared of what my life will become, but at the same time im excited, i am growing up and in the next few months i will change drastically. Its almost time for me to make a life for myself. Im becomming an adult, and i have to start accepting the responsibilities that come with it, i cant wait to see what '06 has in store for me.
And on another note, im am so gratefull that i have the friends i do...i dont know what i would have done without you guys, my friends play a major part in who i have become and i appriciate everything you guys have done for me, and all the times you've been there.
I look forward to 2006 and spending time with my sweet ass friends, who have been there for me somtimes more than my own family.
For those of you who dont know, i will be studying Criminal Justice in college and from there i will attend the Police Academy to round off my college education and hopfully become one of the best cops in the area. Watch for me: Comming to a town near you, and takin down the bad guys!
As for my 2006 new years resolutions? Well at first i decided that i dident really belive in them, but i decided to set some anyways, and maybe they will make me a better person.
1. Try new and interesting things. Think outside the box. Be spontanious. Go against the flow.
2. Live 2006 to the fullest and soak in everything i can.
3. Do as much as i can and have as much fun as i can.
4. Dont get upset over stupid things.
5. Dont hit any cars
6. Stay out of jail
I hope everyone had a safe, jail free, and happy new year...